I’m working

on reprogramming my mind to not care what other people think. Why is is so hard you might ask? Bad habits die hard. Numerous times a day, I say to myself

no one is paying attention to you

who cares, we’re all going to die anyways

everyone else is out living their “best life” why are you holding yourself back

in 5 years you’ll be doing the same shit because you cared about what people thought of you

Fear is fine. It’s normal. I remember Lupe Fiasco’s lyrics, “Fear is such a weak emotion, that’s why I despise it.” It made me wish I was someone I wasn’t, and stressed me out because I didn’t know how to achieve that level of fearlessness. Until I read Elizabeth Gilbert’s, Big Magic where she talks about the normalcy and need for fear to co-exist with your ideas, but not letting it have a say in final decisions. How toddlers and psychos are the fearless ones.

I think the moment I reestablish the power and usage of fear in my life, I’ll be alright.

use the fear of failing to keep you in motion

use the fear of complacency (doing the same shit you do today in 5 years)

use the fear of not being good enough (imposter syndrome) to make you go harder

There’s so much power in unlearning and reprogramming over and over again. “Maybe the journey isn’t so much about becoming anything. Maybe it’s about un-becoming everything that isn’t really you. So you can be who you were meant to be in the first place.”

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