I think where I went wrong was not making goals. Like flat out goals. I’ve always had thoughts of where I’d want to be but I’ve never demanded anything out of myself. Never said: This is where you will be and this is how you will get there. I think I never wanted to write anything down out of fear that I’d fall short of this grand person I planned on being and end up letting myself down. My whole life I’ve been told “You’re destined to do great things.” Entangled in all of this encouragement has been self-doubt with about 5 table spoons of no confidence. I think my lack of confidence has truly restricted me from this so called greatness I have been so called destined for. There are so many things I want out of life to the point where I find them overwhelming (first world problems) I guess right now I am developing a sort of tunnel vision: setting a single goal and first achieving that. I have this belief…this hope, that things will fall into place if I ready and position myself to receive the blessings God has prepared. I cannot allow myself to be unprepared for the changes God has for me this new year.
Toward the end of 2018, I began to believe in speaking things into existence. When people ask me what I want to do in life, I want to confidently tell them. This is something I have to practice. So I say it with certainty to the point where I believe myself and others believe me.
I expect my goals to change, as I am aware my life will too. But as of today, the last Saturday in 2018 here they are in no particular order
1-3 are affirmation goals. Mindsets I aspire
to acquire.
1. Consistent. Be consistent with yourself. Be consistent with others. If you are not consistent with yourself, how can you expect consistency from anyone else?
2. Be in complete unconditional love with yourself. Remember your worth. Remember you are able to make yourself laugh, give yourself orgasms and remind yourself how intelligent and beautiful you are. You are capable of whatever you put your mind to. Anyone who makes you feel like you’re asking for too much… Simply isn’t enough.
3. You is kind
You is smart
You is important
4. Have $10,000 saved by this time next year … DEC. 29th, 2019.
5. Graduate from CAU this spring.
6. Start yoga classes in Febuary.
7. Get something published in 2019.
8. Start your teaching certificate by April, 2019.
9. Develop 3 consistent sources of income by April, 2019.
10. Get into a mentorship program by Febuary, 2019.
11. Only eat meat on the weekends.
12. Work out at least two days a week (this is NOT including yoga)
13. visit an elder once a week.
14. Go to church at least 3 Sunday’s a month.
15. Join a Bible study group
16. consistently blog at least once a week (Sundays)
Here are my 16…For now. I expect to evolve into a better person, the person I pray to one day be, as the year continues.
In 2017- I realized I am stronger and more capable than I think.
In 2018- God’s laughing at the plans we make for ourselves.
Excited to see the blessings 2019 brings 🤞🏾
BlackGirlKnowMagic 