I’m working

on reprogramming my mind to not care what other people think. Why is is so hard you might ask? Bad habits die hard. Numerous times a day, I say to myself no one is paying attention to you who cares, we're all going to die anyways everyone else is out living their "best life" why … Continue reading I’m working

I am in love with this era of “that girl,” “a day in the life,” "Get ready with me,” and reels…just the overall glamorization of life. We deserve it. I remember there was a time when the conversation was how inauthentic social media was… After 2020… we all just wanted to romanticize our life… not … Continue reading

Decide what you want.

I’ve been hearing a lot of talk about being the main character in your life. Putting yourself first when writing your story… I’ve never fathomed the concept of being the hero in my narrative. At least not the kind that wears capes, not even the type who saves herself first. I think life is very … Continue reading

to freedom,

I know that I am in my period of solitude, and I believe God put me here with every intention for me to grow. Bloom where you are planted. I feel less of myself here, I’m negative, emotional, lonely, if I sit in silence, no tik tok, no live stream, I cry… Sometimes, hysterically. There … Continue reading to freedom,

If you don’t follow your dreams, you’ll spend your life working to help others pursue theirs.

Checking boxes continued: playing small

Checking boxes kept me right where I was. Trapped in those boxes. I remember a time when I told my coach to not start me… that another player deserved it. And at that moment, I genuinely believed it. It’s not that I want to see other people win that bad. It’s me worried about falling … Continue reading Checking boxes continued: playing small

debt.

I owe myself an apology, forgiveness and a permission slip. I’m sorry for not listening to you, to your gut feeling. But I have to forgive you, so you can move on and become more than “potential.” Because if you don’t then that’s all you’ll ever be. Because if you don’t then guilt will hold … Continue reading debt.

1st Quarter

When I take a chance on myself, put myself out there- I don’t miss. So, you’d think I’d take every shot. Instead, those boxes I have been checking allowed me to feel like I was doing right by myself, by my family. While the reality was I was playing small. I was playing safe. I … Continue reading 1st Quarter

Up until now: Checking boxes

I've been thinking about all the ways I've checked off boxes in my life. Life hasn't been hard. ever. I'm good at doing what I'm supposed to do.. bare minimum. 28 and I’ve realized checking the boxes isn’t enough. It got me a decent job. Got me an apartment. But not what I’ve wanted deep … Continue reading Up until now: Checking boxes