1st Quarter

When I take a chance on myself, put myself out there- I don’t miss. So, you’d think I’d take every shot. Instead, those boxes I have been checking allowed me to feel like I was doing right by myself, by my family. While the reality was I was playing small. I was playing safe. I … Continue reading 1st Quarter

Up until now: Checking boxes

I've been thinking about all the ways I've checked off boxes in my life. Life hasn't been hard. ever. I'm good at doing what I'm supposed to do.. bare minimum. 28 and I’ve realized checking the boxes isn’t enough. It got me a decent job. Got me an apartment. But not what I’ve wanted deep … Continue reading Up until now: Checking boxes

SAY WHEN

Think the cheese grater at Olive Garden, or when you ask your friend to fill up your wine glass. You are told to say “when,” when you want them to stop. When you have received the amount, you’ve wanted. Let’s apply this. Do you ever say “when” to yourself? Whether you’re taking on too many … Continue reading SAY WHEN

Within You

God made earth before humans. Everything we could want or need has been provided. The earth, the moon, the sun, the grass, streams, animals. Genesis chapter 1:1-26 shows us just that. God’s manifestation of this world before placing us here. And when we were brought here, he used the rib from one (Adam), to make … Continue reading Within You

maybe, just maybe.

It just dawned on me that my favorite fictional tv characters, Mary Jane Paul +. Carrie Bradshaw spent their entire show runs healing from and chasing love. Yet, what I’ve always admired most about them was their individuality + independence. So now I’m sitting here thinking, maybe- just maybe- I’ve chosen the wrong narratives to … Continue reading maybe, just maybe.

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I don’t remember where I heard it, a podcast or in Gabrielle Union’s book… but it was said that you generally are worried about other people’s judgement of you is because you’re used to judging them. So, I’ve been asking myself… how true is this? Am I judgmental? I’ve always been hyper-aware of how others … Continue reading ctrl

the 2022, you.

You spend so much trying to manage people’s perception of you, that you’re losing yourself. How do you get your life to the point where it’s yours… when do you decide to be the main character in your story? You’re so afraid to fail, you never start. So afraid to fail, you never share your … Continue reading the 2022, you.

10. “You feel unsettled because you know you are meant for more.”

It's not often I get a good night's rest. Don't get me wrong I'm tired. But it's the type of tired that sleep can't heal. It's the type of restlessness you experience when there's still work to be done. The type of disappointment that weighs heavily when you know you are capable of, and could … Continue reading 10. “You feel unsettled because you know you are meant for more.”

09.

I read this simple quote. "Life chooses you everyday." everyday we have the opportinity to take new chances the opportunity to make new decisions. And everyday under the sun, moon and stars is another day, life chooses us. How can you not love life back? If not 10x harder. What does reciprocating life's love look … Continue reading 09.

08. i get it.

I'm living in that complex space of balancing a job, maintaining relationships, working on myself. I'm truly navigating being in this area of having mandatory responsibilities- and it's a new type of stress. The type where stress isn't a feeling, it's just my existence. The type where I have had my period for the past … Continue reading 08. i get it.